Monday, January 31, 2011

#96 - Buy a new handbag

I decided to get a wallet too :)

Day 10

I didn't have my first kiss until I was 19 with my first ex. Looking back on it, it wasn't anything memorable. There were no fireworks or "sparks". It just happened. When we were together, I really thought he was my first love. I was dead wrong. I was in love with the fact that I finally had a boyfriend. Then there's Alex. He's the only man I've kissed where I've felt fireworks, sparks, seen stars...Whatever you want to call it, I felt it the first time we kissed. I'm getting chills just thinking about it.

We've been together for a year and a half, and I still get goosebumps when we kiss. I know he's my first love. I can't really explain it. I just love him. Even when he pisses me off to end, I don't regret marrying him or giving him that chance to show me he's a good guy. He drives me nuts, but in a good way. I'd do anything for him, and he means the world to me. I hate to sound so cheesy, but I really did marry the man of my dreams.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Day 9

I think today's topic is kind of a copy of where do I want to be in 10 years. Nothing has changed in the past 5 or 6 days...

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Day 8

I'm not sure when I've been 100% satisfied. Probably when I got married. This will probably turn out to be a half-assed post only because tonight is my last night at work. And I'm also really hungry, but I don't know what I want to eat. Priorities, right?

Friday, January 28, 2011

Day 7

I'm a Cancer...the crab. I have mixed feeling about my sign. According to this, I'm emotional and loving, intuitive and imaginative, shrewd and cautious and protective and sympathetic. On the bad side I'm changeable and moody, overemotional and touchy and clinging and unable to let go. As much as I hate to admit it, the basics are true. But at the same, I just think it's a little to random to be considered a reliable assessment. I thought it was cool in junior high, but now I think it's dumb. I don't put too much stock into it. I'm not making fun of people that do, but it's not important to me.

On to more important stuff, I finally learned that I got laid off. But my manager didn't tell me herself. I found out by looking at the schedule and seeing that I was only working Sunday. While it sucks that I'm out of work again, I'm glad I was let go. The store I worked for is slowing going up in flames and I didn't want to go down with a sinking ship. So, the job search resumes. But I know I can find something bigger, something brighter. Wish me luck :)

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Day 6

Ok, I tried thinking of 30 interesting things. I tapped out at 9 things. So instead of that, here are pics of the oh so lovely weather here.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

#8 and 51

We're having a snowstorm here in Maryland. It started this morning, and we had to clean off our car before we could leave. In the middle of that, I threw a small snowball at Alex. He retaliated by throwing one that was as big as my head. We went back and forth for a bit and called a truce. It was so random and dumb, but I had fun. We were giggling like crazy the entire time. Just another one of our cute moments :)

The book I chose for #8 was My Dirty Little Book of Stolen Time by Liz Jensen. And to be honest, I really did not like it. It has a great premise (time travel), but then it just doesn't make any sense. The main character is annoying and whiny, and I just felt like the whole thing fell flat. Oh well.

Day 5

I honestly thought about skipping today. Today's topic is a bit of a touchy subject for me. I actually tried to kill myself. I was 15, going on 16. I hated myself. My parents constantly reminded me of how much of a failure I was and how disappointed they were. I couldn't stand to look at myself in the mirror without crying. I just wanted the pain to stop. I didn't want to worry about facing yet another day of bullshit. I felt I was most at peace when I was sleeping. I locked the door, put on my favorite music at the time, took the pills then went to sleep.

Either I didn't take enough or I was incredibly lucky, because I woke up 14-15 hours later. My parents didn't even know what I had tried to do. Then just yelled at me for being lazy and sleeping for so long. I remember being so upset because I was still alive. I feel ashamed for saying that, but that's how I felt. It wasn't until I was in college that I realized life isn't as bad when you have people to support you. I wish I had more support when I was younger, but I guess things do happen for a reason. I know not everyone believes that. But how else can I explain how I've lived though a suicide attempt and a drug overdose? I don't know. All I know is I've been through way too much hell, and I'm not giving up again.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Day 4

I believed that there was a god until I was 20. I started going to church when I was 14, and I was "on fire for the lord". Looking back on it, I think that was the worse thing I could have done. I prayed until I was blue in the face, memorized the ambiguous bible, gave money that I didn't have and wasted all my teen years hearing people tell me everything I felt was wrong. But I stuck with it. I tried. Then...I got date raped. I was 18 and a virgin. I got drunk, and to this day there still things I can't remember. The first thing my parents told me was "pray for forgiveness and that you aren't pregnant".

I was terrified. I prayed and prayed to forget or to be healed. Wanna know what happened? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I had to heal myself. I'm still in the healing process. I'm sure I sound bitter, but I don't know if there is a god. I can tell you right now that the Christian Baptist version probably doesn't exist. There could be something, but I don't know and I don't care enough to find out. If someone chooses to believe in that, then it's their life. I'm just not going to waste anymore of mine on something that has caused more pain and grief than I want to share...

Monday, January 24, 2011

Day 3

Sorry I missed a day, folks. I was dead to the world when I got home from work. On to something interesting: my views on drugs and alcohol. I'll have a glass of wine every once in a while with Alex. If I'm celebrating something, it'll be a couple glasses. But, I don't drink to the point where I black out or get sick. I think alcohol is yet another thing that's ok in moderation. However, there are people that just drink in excess. I have friends that do that, and it just isn't pretty. If you don't know you're limit or can't stick to it, don't drink.

As for drugs...never start. I have (more like had) friends that currently smoke pot and have done harder drugs. And they're all kinds of screwed up. I've done that stuff. Then I did it too much. I don't know why people get into that. I did it because I had something horrible happen to me, and it dulled the pain. Sometimes that high just makes the world stop, and you don't have to deal with anything or anyone anymore. Then you crave that release from reality, so you do it more and more. Then your body will just give out. It happens to everyone, and don't let them tell you otherwise. Some of us are lucky and live. But others, aren't. So...I say stay away from it all. A temporary high isn't worth death. 

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Day 2

Ah, one of my favorites: Where do I want to be in 10 years? I've answered this so many times, and each time the answer was different. At 16, I said I wanted to be in the process of going to medical school. At 19, I wanted to be a high powered lawyer. And now, here I am at 22. To be honest, I'm not 100% sure where I want to be yet. I still want to be married, and I definitely want kids. But I don't know what else I want besides that. Do I want to be working full-time and utilizing my Business Administration degree? Or do I want to stay home and take care of our kids? Hell, do I constantly want to travel with my family? I can't answer that because I'm not there yet. And it's very hard to think that far ahead when my life could go in any direction. I have an idea, but it's subject to change. Then again, isn't life in general always subject to change?

Friday, January 21, 2011

Day 1

It was the day before my 21st birthday. He was 28. I had moved to Maryland 2 months prior, and I didn't know anyone. I didn't even have family close by. So, I decided to join a dating site. I'd tried several before (with horrible results), but I was mainly looking for a friend. I came across his profile, and I noticed we had a lot in common. I sent him a message, even though I was 99% sure I wouldn't hear anything back. A few minutes later we started chatting. It was kind of weird at first because he knew about all these obscure things I liked and understood them. The next day he asked me out.

Then...we hit a bit of a rough patch. All of my relationships before him had ended badly. I felt like he was too good to be true. So I basically broke up with him before he could break up with me. I guess I just panicked. Thankfully, he didn't give up on me. Every time I talked to him, he told me how much he cared about me and for me to give him a chance. July 18, 2009 we became an official couple.

June 8, 2010, he proposed. He was taking me out to lunch, and before we left he told me to sit down and close my eyes. He said he loved me, and I was the best thing that ever happened to him. And that I was his perfect match, and he didn't want anyone else. Then he asked me to be his wife. I think you all know what my answer was...

We originally wanted a medium sized wedding. But after adding up the costs and how long we would have to wait, we decided to bypass all of that. August 2010 we set our wedding day for October 26, 2010. After several long weeks, the day had arrived. And...the rest is history :)

Thursday, January 20, 2011


I've been super stressed out for the past couple of days. I got a seasonal job over the holidays, and they're still not sure if they want to keep me as a regular employee. If they do, I won't have to worry about finding another job for a little while. If they don't, I need to find something else asap. I'm trying to just relax and remain positive that everything will work out, but it's hard. I'm applying like crazy, but what if I don't find something if they let me go? Being an adult sucks...

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

My kitty

I took some new pics of my cat Gill. He is the most affectionate cat you will ever meet. I just wish he didn't beg for food at 4 in the morning...

Dear Ice...

Thank you for making my steep and already treacherous driveway even more fun to traverse.


Monday, January 17, 2011

Ideas and inspiration

I've been having trouble thinking of what I can posts. I've been ok mentally and emotionally for the past few days. I feel like it would be redundant if I just post "I'm ok" every few days. And I don't like going more than a day or two without posting. So I'm going to do a blog challenge. I'm still doing my list, but I'm focusing more on the books and movies at the moment. I came across this one (thanks to Across the Pond), and I thought it was very interesting:

Now, keep in my there are countless other challenges out there, but I still felt like this one would be more fun and meaningful. I might now start it until Thursday only because Alex will be off tomorrow and Wednesday. What can I say? I love spending time with my husband :)

Sunday, January 16, 2011

New music weekend vol. 2

I chose "Hardwire" by Metric. They remind me of a blend of Eisley, KT Tunstall and Kerli.

Make it electric...

Hello everybody! If I seem extremely perky, it's because I had 2 big cups of coffee and I haven't had that debilitating crash. I feel really good today. I'm guessing it's because I have several days off to relax and catch up on my movies and books. I started Anna Karenina this morning. I'm only a few pages in, but I love it so far. Not much to report. Everything's been good, I feel great about myself and I'm madly in love with my husband. I hope everyone continues to have a great weekend, and I'll post again in a couple of days.

Friday, January 14, 2011

A little reminder.

When I got on Facebook this morning, I saw that one of my friends posted a great status. I loved it because I think it's a great reminder of why I married Alex. I modified it to how long we've been married, but everything else is the same:

If you have a wonderful man, who helps balance your whole world...who isn't perfect, but is perfect for you... who works hard and would do anything for you. Who makes you laugh and drives you crazy, who is your best friend, who you want to grow old with, and who you are thankful for everyday, and who you could NOT live without....I said "I do" almost three months ago for all of these reasons!

I decided to share this because marriage is a crap-ton of work, and there are times where it's far from easy. But my love for Alex never, ever changes. And I think that's one of the most important things couples need to remember: If you really love that person, nothing will get in your way and the hard times will pass.

Monday, January 10, 2011

#11 - Eat at a Thai restaurant

I found this great place called the Sapphire Restaurant and Lounge. Alex and I loved it. We tried goat for the first time. It kind tastes like a cross between pork and beef. We went to the buffet, and it was good but a lot smaller than we thought it would be. I meant to take pictures of the restaurant, but I forgot my camera. Since I completed this one earlier than I thought I would, I'm going to add a new one: Eat at 5 new restaurants. As for my first post, I'm doing a lot better. I had a bit of a rough patch, but Alex helped me through it. So, it's all good :)

What I want... to scream my head off right now. I'm unbelievably stressed out, and I just really feel like I have no support from the one person I could use it from. It's frustrating, and it makes me feel like I can't do anything right. I'm barely getting sleep. Last night I got two hours. I feel like I'm going to go through this all over again tomorrow...

# 56 - Spend a weekend with only my books and music

Sorry for the lack of warning, but I spent one weekend with my books and music. really sucked. I know it sounds bad, but I love my internet and my PS3. The good news is I finished 5 books, listen to 602 out of the 4,364 I have on my iPod and finished 57 out of 1,014 Sudoku puzzles. So, it was a very productive weekend. I finally got to read The Time Traveler's Wife. That book is beyond amazing. It definitely lives up to the hype. Within the next few days I'll watch the movie. I'm really proud of myself. I kind of thought I'd cave in, but I didn't. I never want to repeat that ever again, but I'm still happy I completed yet another goal.

Friday, January 7, 2011

#95 - 50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind

Here's the one that I've looking forward to completing. It's very eye opening. And it definitely makes you re-evaluate your life:

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
I'd say probably my early to mid 30's. I don't know why, but ever since I turned 20, I've just felt so much older than what I actually am. I'm guessing it's because of all the things I've had to deal with in the past 4-5 years.

2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Never trying. If you fail, you can at least learn from your mistake. If you never try, you won't know what might happen.

3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
I guess we just accept whatever is given to us, and don't strive to achieve something better. As far as liking the things we don't do, for me it's fear. Fear of failure, or that the thing I like really isn't what's best for me. So, I just give up on it and play the "what-if" game.

4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Yes, probably. I make all these plans to do things, and one way or another they don't pan out.

5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
All of the intolerance and hate. Yes, it's good that everyone is different. But if someone is basically the 180 of what you believe or how you live, you shouldn't hate them for it. It really pisses me off when I hear someone being attacked for being who they are. None of us have the right to judge another human being.

6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Listening to and discovering music. It's one of the things that is extremely important to me and makes me happy.

7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
 I was just settling. I'd like to think I'm doing what I believe in, but sometimes I'm just not sure.

8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
 I'd definitely speak my mind more. Right now I just stay quiet to keep the peace.

9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
I was letting a "higher power" decided what was best for me. When I realized that didn't exist, I put my money on fate. It was until a little over 7 months ago that I took control of my own life.

10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
I wish I could say it's the latter, but I know it's the former. And I probably make thing harder than they need to be because of it.

11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do?
This has happened to me before. And...I joined in. I didn't defend him/her. I was more focused on fitting in than doing what was right. I lost several friends because of it.

12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
Do what's best for you, and don't let others control you.

13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
Yes. I really would

14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
Yes. It takes me seeing something 2 or 3 times, but I can always find the beauty that the artist saw in the midst of chaos.

15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
When I listen to music, I  don't just hear it. I can feel and see it. I can't describe it, but it's a very physical experience for me.

16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
I guess it's because everyone's different. Everyone has their own quirks and preferences.

17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What’s holding you back?
Go back to school and get my degree. I kept saying money was the reason, but that hasn't been the case. I haven't been as diligent in looking for a stable job as I could be. And because of that, I'm still in debt and just waiting for something to happen.

18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
More than likely. I tend to hold grudges. If I had to guess what I'm holding on to, I'm guessing it's the whole situation with my parents. I feel like I should hate them for everything they did, but I can't. I feel like I should say something to them, but I have no desire to and I'm so much happier without them. I feel like I'm stuck, and I don't want what's going on with them prevent me from doing anything.

19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
Italy. I've always been fascinated by their culture and it looks like a beautiful country.

20. Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
I've never done that. I know it doesn't make it go faster.

21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
I really don't know. I used to believe ignorance is bliss, but now I'm not sure. I can't pick.

22. Why are you, you?
Past experiences and people shaped me into who I am now. If I hadn't done certain things, I'd be completely different.

23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
No. Absolutely not. I had a lot of growing up to do, and I didn't know how to act around people. I'm a lot better than I was.

24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
I always lose touch with people who live near me. The problem is I'm never that broken up about it when it happens. I wish I was.

25. What are you most grateful for?
Finding someone who gets me, and realizing I'm not alone anymore.

26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
I'd say lose the old ones. Who knows how many great memories I'll have in the future?

27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
No, I think you have to question it and see that it's true before you can believe it.

28. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
To be honest...I don't think I've ever figured out what my greatest fear is. There are things I'm afraid of, but they're not my biggest fear.

29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now?
Let's see, I was 17...I have no idea what I was upset about at 17, so no I guess it doesn't matter.

30. What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special? 
I don't have a good memory from my childhood.

31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive? 
When I got married.

32.  If not now, then when?
Soon, I hope.

33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
Nothing. So..I don't know.

34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?  
No. I always feel like I have to say something. I don't think I've even had a moment of silence with my own husband.

35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
That's what humans do. We have the unfortunate ability to take something that's good, inject our ulterior motives into it and deform that good thing.

36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
I think there's a general guideline, however there will always be a gray area.

37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? 
Yes. But I would still look for something better.

38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
Something I enjoy doing. I know there isn't a job that's 100% perfect for me. But I do know there's something that's not mind-numbing like what I'm doing now.

39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
Yes. I'm just sitting here, wasting time online before I go to a job that I really don't like. This happens every week.

40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
I've never experienced that. I wish I could.

41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
My grandparents. I haven't seen them in years, and I know they don't have much time left as it is..

42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
No. There's no guarantee on how long I'm going to be alive. For example, if I do take 10 years off my life to be famous, but I'm supposed to die at 33, that means I'd only live to be 23. I'd die within a year. It sounds morbid, but I'm not going to gamble on something that isn't a guarantee.

43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living? 
Living is having a daily drive. It's like a fire that's ignited every time you wake up. You look forward to facing the world and make plans to do things and better yourself. Being alive is just waking up, and doing the same thing over and over. It's monotonous.

44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
Now. If you keep saying tomorrow, then you'll never do it.

45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
More than likely, it's a lesson we know we need but don't want to learn.

46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
I'd speak my mind more often and not hold back.

47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
I never have. I know I'm breathing, and I guess I feel that's all that matters.

48. What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
I love a lot of things. And I know I haven't been showing it recently.

49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that?
I know I won't.

50. Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
I'm honestly trying to make them for myself. But, I think I still want others to make the difficult ones for me. I'm trying to break out of that habit. 

Thursday, January 6, 2011

#7 and 74

2 more done today. The movies I chose for the marathon were The Phantom of the Opera, Death Row, iMurders, Tokyo Gore Police and The Red Shoes. The good news is my appetite for awesomely cheesy movies was satisfied. The bad news is all of them were cheesy in a bad way. Since I decided to go with bad movies first, let's move on to awesome music. Here are my 101 favorite songs:

1. "Head Over Feet" by Alanis Morrissette
2. "Adelaide" by Anberlin
3. "A Whisper and A Clamor" by Anberlin
4. "There Is No Mathematics to Love Or Loss" by Anberlin
5. "Body Movin'" by Beastie Boys
6. "Glass Onion" by The Beatles
7. "While My Guitar Gently Weeps" by The Beatles
8. "Strawberry Fields Forever" by The Beatles
9. " Happiness Is A Warm Gun" by The Beatles
10. "Martha My Dear" by The Beatles
11. "Piano Man" by Billy Joel
12. "Movin' Out (Anthony's Song) by Billy Joel
13. "What Lies Beneath" by Breaking Benjamin
14. "Mandolin Rain" by Bruce Hornsy & The Range
15. "Lust For Kicks" by The Cars
16. "You're All I've Got Tonight" by The Cars
17. "Bye Bye Love" by The Cars
18. "Don't Cha Stop" by The Cars
19. "I'm In Touch With Your World" by The Cars
20. "Moving In Stereo" by The Cars
21. "All Mixed Up" by The Cars
22. "Around The World" by Daft Punk
23. "People Are Strange" by The Doors
24. "Hello, I Love You" by The Doors
25. "Break On Through (To The Other Side) by The Doors
26. "Skulk" by Echo Image
27. "Bennie and The Jets" by Elton John
28. "Crocodile Rock" by Elton John
29."The Party Song" by Emery
30. "Churches and Serial Killers" by Emery
31. "The Smile, The Face" by Emery
32. "Edge of The World" by Emery
33. "Playing With Fire" by Emery
34. "Mushaboom" by Feist
35. "Leisure Suite" by Feist
36. "I Feel It All" by Feist
37. "1234" by Feist
38. "Wind Up" by Foo Fighters
39. "February Stars" by Foo Fighters
40. "Everlong" by Foo Fighters
41. "Stakeout" by Freezepop
42. "Peacemaker" by Green Day
43. "Wings of a Butterfly" by HIM
44. "Killing Loneliness" by HIM
45. " Sell Your Soul" by Hollywood Undead
46. "Viva La Resistance" by Hypernova
47. "Oh My God" by Ida Maria
48. "Anna Molly" by Incubus
49. "Megalomaniac" by Incubus
50. "Warning" by Incubus
51. "Die Alone" by Ingrid Michaelson
52. "Twentysomething" by Jamie Cullum
53. "Ruby" by Kaiser Chiefs
54. "All These Things That I've Done" by The Killers
55. "Rooftops" by Lostprophets
56. "This is The New Shit" by Marilyn Manson
57. "Back at Your Door" by Maroon 5
58. All of Mindless Self Indulgence's songs
59. "Silent Whisper" by Monolithic
60. "Time is Running Out" by Muse
61. "Stockholm Syndrome" by Muse
62. "Plug In Baby" by Muse
63. "Undisclosed Desires" by Muse
64. "The Small Print" by Muse
65. "Starfuckers Inc." by Nine Inch Nails
66. "Capital G" by Nine Inch Nails
67. "The Saltwater Room" by Owl City
68. "The Bird and The Worm" by Owl City
69. "Dental Care" by Owl City
70. "Fireflies" by Owl City
71. "Careful" by Paramore
72. "Emergency" by Paramore
73. "Faster Kill Pussycat" by Paul Oakenfold
74. "No Compromise" by Paul Oakenfold
75. "Debaser" by Pixies
76. "Wave of Mutilation" by Pixies
77. "Dead" by Pixies
78. "Mr. Grieves" by Pixies
79. All of Queens of the Stone Age's songs
80. "Jigsaw Falling Into Place" by Radiohead
81. "Weird Fishes/Arpeggi" by Radiohead
82. "Cherry Bomb" The Runaways
83. "Psycho Killer" by Talking Heads
84. "Burning Down the House" by Talking Heads
85. "Dead End Friends" by Them Crooked Vultures
86. "Istanbul" by They Might Be Giants
87. "A Sorta Fairytale" by Tori Amos
88. "Bitter Sweet Symphony" by The Verve
89. "The Freshman" by The Verve Pipe
90. "Inaction" by We Are Scientists
91. "Cash Cow" by We Are Scientists
92. "It's A Hit" by We Are Scientists
93. "Rich" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs
94. "Man" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs
95. "Tick" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs
96. "Black Tongue" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs
97. "Maps" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs
98. "Heads Will Roll" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs
99. "Gold Lion" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs
100. "Way Out" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs
101. "Cheated Hearts" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Wednesday, January 5, 2011


I was able to finish #2 - Make a list of 101 things that make me happy. It was easier than I though it would be. I figured I'd be able to think of 5 or 6 things, then draw a blank. But I just kept going and going. I was surprised at how many things make me genuinely happy. I decided against posting the list only because I feel that should be kept private. I will, however, post my 101 favorite songs tomorrow :)

Tuesday, January 4, 2011


I really can't think of anything to post today. No goals were completed, and the movies I watched today were so dumb that they're not worth reviewing. I'll try to think of something interesting for tomorrow.

Monday, January 3, 2011

# 42, 86 and 88

Okay, the "crisis" from earlier has been averted. We took Gill to the vet, and he appears to be okay outside of dirty teeth. Now onto my goals. I'm kicking ass. It's only the 3rd day of the new year and I've completed 4 things. For #42 I chose Amadeus. I had heard about it several years ago, but was never able to see it. I was pleasantly surprised. It's actually more like a dark comedy. A little longer than that I thought it would be, but I still loved it.

Then came the two I wasn't looking forward to. Once again, I was pleasantly surprised. The 2 people I had regretted severing ties with forgave me. I actually spoke to one of them briefly. As far as the exes go, I could only find one (and I was so happy, you have no idea). And we're okay. He has his life and family, and I have mine. So far, I'm happy with my progress and how things are turning out. Maybe 2011 won't be so bad after all.

Short post. Not sure if I'll be posting later.

Sorry, this will be so short. When Alex and I came home about an hour ago, I noticed our cat Gill was dragging his left back foot. He doesn't seem to be in any pain, but there's no reason for him to be dragging his foot. So we're taking him to the vet this evening. I'll try and give you all an update if I feel up to it tonight.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

New music weekend pt. 2

Today's pick is "Crawl" by Sparta. I can't really describe it, but it's a very light and melodic song. I'm surprised I've never heard of them before:

Saturday, January 1, 2011

New music weekend pt. 1

One of my goals is find 26 bands I've never listened to starting with each letter of the alphabet. I figured instead of just sharing my favorites, I'd incorporate my goal for a while. First up is "Just Got To Be" by The Black Keys. They sound great, and I'm really liking this song:

#77 Experience a New Years kiss/ Hello, 2011

Happy New Year, everyone! I know it's only the first day of 2011, but I'm hitting the ground running. I was able to cross off one thing on my list. It may sound weird, but it was very special for me. I've never had a New Years kiss before, and my first one was with Alex. Now that I've gotten one fun thing out of the way, I'm going to take care of the harder ones: make peace with people whose friendships with me ended badly, and make peace with my exes. I'm not going to lie, I don't want to do either of them. I don't want to divulge my past, but this is going to suck considering the people involved. However, I know it'll be good for me to get closure. So...wish me luck.